I was fortunate enough to spend much of my childhood near to my grandmother, a beautiful woman, from whom I learned many important lessons. Granny seemed really to love everyone she met, and even with no formal education, she had great wisdom about life and how to meet its difficulties. Although her faith had been often challenged by hard situations, I knew it to be strong and unwavering. As well, she never took herself too seriously and could be depended upon to rely on an easy sense of humor to keep life's inevitable ups and downs in clear perspective.
I remember when we got our first telephone, which was on a party line. For those who have never lived in the country or who have but are not old enough to remember times that long ago, a party line was essentially one connection that served several families-meaning, of course, that any household sharing it could listen in on the telephone conversations of all the others. Sometimes, for entertainment, we kids would do this very thing, and I'm sure that many adults did the same. Anyway, one day, I heard my grandmother talking to someone on the phone about how well things were going in some area of her life, only to conclude by saying, "But it's too early to brag."
After Granny hung up, I asked her what she meant by, "too early to brag." She smiled and said, 'Honey, when you're older, you will figure it out." Well, I'm quite a bit older now, and at long last, I get it. My grandmother knew then what I have finally come to understand for myself-that good and bad things in life will always follow each other, no matter who you are and how much you may try to resist, and that low points, if used correctly, can help strengthen us. And so it is with Granny's perspective that I have decided to approach the rest of my life.
Some of you may know that I have lost two siblings to cancer and that I, myself, was diagnosed with genetic colon cancer, last year. Although I underwent a successful surgery and several months of chemotherapy, at the conclusion of which the tests showed no further evidence of the disease, as it turns out, it was, in Granny's words, too early to brag. Recently, an unrelated surgery showed that the cancer has resurfaced.
The good news is that, although additional surgery cannot solve the problem, new medications will enable me to live a fairly normal life, while suppressing the growth of the tiny tumors that have attached to the outer lining of my stomach. Although the cancer is technically now stage four, my prognosis is surprisingly good, and I have been encouraged by my physicians to plan for a full and active life, for years to come.
As of this writing, I continue to work, though at a reduced schedule, and am enjoying every day to its fullest. I am at the mercy of God's perfect love, and I trust in His divine wisdom to help me complete my life's calling. In addition to my family, it is you, my friends and clients, who have given me the purpose that keeps me going. I could never express adequately in words how much you have meant and continue to mean to me, and so I won't attempt to do so here, except to say, I thank God for you.
If my own experience with cancer prompts in you the wish for an exchange on some particular subject for the benefit of all, feel free to write me, and perhaps we will resume the dialog that began on this web site's Q&A section, some time ago. I welcome also your comments, because I learn something about life from others' experience with it, every day.
Many thanks again for your very kind notes, calls, thoughts, and prayers.
Love and Light,
A Personal Message Regarding My Health June 2012